A Jolly Affair

新博客

2007-09-19T13:28:00.000+08:00

各位可爱的粉丝们！
我的新博客在www.ajollyaffair.wordpress.com
这几个月来，在这里很好，因为可以看到大家在tagboard的互动。不过中国好像是禁止网友上任何 blogspot的博客，所以我只好“搬家”。希望大家还是会支持我，到我的新博客去留言哦！我等你们！

I've decided to set up a new blog at www.ajollyaffair.wordpress.com
Right now, they do not permit tag boards at wordpress, so do leave me comments okie? I won't shut down this site, so you can still come to the tagboard here, but my new entries will be over there.

The reason why I'm changing is because blogspot is not accessible for those in China so friends/fans over there have trouble reading my entries. :(

Do support my new blog at www.ajollyaffair.wordpress.com okie! See ya all there!

Love,
Joanne

Sesame Street

2007-09-16T22:02:00.000+08:00

Sesame Street was pretty much part of my childhood. These were my favourite characters!
Don't the songs just make you happy?
*giggles*

昨日的回忆

2007-09-16T02:10:00.001+08:00

"Like Father Like Daughter" is coming to an end soon and I'm so glad most of you enjoyed watching it. It's very heart warming to know that we've managed to entertain all of you for the past month. :) Thank you so much for supporting the show!! Thought I'd pull out some of the pictures taken during production couple of months back for reminiscence sake.

《宝贝父女兵》快要结束了！这些照片是当时拍的，让我留下了非常美好的回忆。（多谢　“隆弟”　的摄影！）相信你们现在看这些照片也会觉得比较熟悉。嘿嘿！

星期一就大结局了，别错过了哦！

打成一片

亲爱的婆婆

“蟑螂摆尾”

婆婆说她也爱我！

可爱的Akira (真名Nelson, 华语名因为找不到汉字所以没写）
戏里面他唱的歌都是自创的！包括我在戏里轻唱的那首歌。

不难猜是谁吧！

The artist who drew all of Chun Chun portraits in the show actually cut this outline of me within 1 minute. So talented!!
画纯纯肖像的师傅帮我剪的。像纯纯吧！

At the Giraffe Cafe
承熹拿我没办法，只好跟长颈鹿扮鬼脸。

乘他没留意的时候。。。

他也会陪我胡闹，嘿嘿！
我是跳起来的，可是相机捕捉的我已经落地了。

Save the best for last!
最后肯定少不了漂亮可爱的“阿莲”（真名Jaclyn, pronounced jack-clean)

时尚和环保

2007-09-14T10:19:00.001+08:00

我上报了！
嘿嘿！

昨天的早报副刊写了关于环保的文章，而我提供的就是自己的环保袋。这些都是我从南非带回来的。我在那儿呆了两个星期，难免需要买一些日常用品和食物。那里的超市提供的塑胶带都要付钱，虽然收费不高，但是目的就是要环保。既然当地的人都自备环保袋，我这个游客也应该入乡随俗，所以就买了好几个，想想回来还可以用。回来之后，这里也开始掀起环保热潮，超市也开始推出自己的环保袋，所以也没有什么新奇的。不过我还是喜欢我的环保袋，因为颜色鲜艳，款式简单。照片里那个绿色的，可以装冰冻食物的，真的很方便。

Anya Hindmarch launched her own environmental friendly shopping bag "I'm Not A Plastic Bag" which got snapped up the moment it was launched. People didn't mind being put on waiting list or paying above the market price just to get their hands on this bag. It is heart-warming to know so many people are supportive of this cause, but I can't help but wonder if fashion pursuit is part of the reason for this enthusiasm.

Hmm, that spun off an idea! What if there was a "Design Your Own Bag" contest? Every participant has a plain white cotton bag where they can exercise their creativity, and the winning entries will be displayed at this "Save The Earth" roadshow (if there is going to be one). Otherwise, they can tie in with magazines to raise awareness too. Maybe put them up for exhibition, or auction or as contest prizes? And if the designs are not too difficult to replicate, perhaps it can even go into mass production.

I've seen t-shirts designed by famous people, canvas shoes painted by tertiary students, why not environmentally friendly bags too?　Maybe if using these bags actually become fashionable, people might be more willing to carry them around.

Hmm...food for thought! :)

狗儿

2007-09-13T20:57:00.001+08:00

特别喜欢这张，因为狗狗看起来好像有生命，很可爱！

我一直都想养宠物，只不过家里太多限制，所以还是不养的好。没有真的，只好用玩具来代替。不久前，我也养了一只Virtual Dog，那是在Nintendogs游戏里，而且恰好跟这只玩具的是一样品种和颜色。

虽然宠物可以给予人类无条件的爱，但是我深信人还是需要与人之间的爱。所以我很感激有很多好朋友在身边关心我，照顾我，还有细心的粉丝那么无条件地支持我，鼓励我。

没有小狗没关系，至少我还有你们。

Love ya all~!

Running Wild

2007-09-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

真的病了！

在家里休息了一整天，有好多了。谢谢你们的关心和嘱咐，我会多喝水ok?

躺在床上睡睡又醒醒，好不容易看完了由权相宇主演的韩国电影 “Running Wild".　除了两位男主角卖力的演出之外，觉得没什么看头。故事没有香港的　《无间道》精彩，人物也没有“Daisy”那么细腻，拍摄手法好像有一点怪怪的。

不仅因为他长的帅我才爱看他的戏，我也很好奇他怎么把自己在每一部戏里都变个样。毕竟男人不像女人，可以有千变万化的造型，在化妆，发型，服装方面都比较有选择。老实说他在这部电影里并没有把我迷倒，但在人物，造型方面却有些不同。他的皮肤黑了些，头发乱了点，留了胡须，整个人看上去一点都没有《悲伤恋歌》里那苦情小子样。感觉他的内心戏的演出方式大同小异，不过他在这部戏里很放，让我觉得这个人怎么这么烦，动不动就要打人。嘿嘿，那他应该算成功啦，让我又爱又恨！

哎呀说了这么多，头又开始疼了。可能是药物开始起作用了。

大家晚安！

Hey Hey Ya Ya Song

2007-09-10T22:42:00.000+08:00

Just writing to update all my dear fans about the "hey hey, yah yah" song a lot of you are asking about on the tag board. I asked the sound engineer and he said it is made up of of a few songs, created specially for this show, so it will not be available anywhere else except the sound effects library at MediaCorp.

Hee hee, suspense over. Can sleep better? :)

I think I'm going to fall sick. Sigh, I can feel it in the back of my throat. Tomorrow is an ULTRA long day and I'm so in need of sleep. Will update again soon.

To all of you with love.

受宠若惊

2007-09-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

今天我真是被宠了！
这束玫瑰花漂亮吗？

记得以前有个朋友说，女孩子真麻烦，买花给她，又嫌浪费钱，不买花给她，又说他不浪漫。哈哈，是哦，口是心非嘛！既然有这样的烦恼，我就建议他不要爱女人咯，反正现在的社会那么开放。嘿嘿！

不过话说回来，给我选，我宁愿男人不懂送花，可是忠厚老实，也不希望他油腔滑调，花言巧语。毕竟花久了会凋谢，可是诚意是一辈子的基础。

今天特别累，头也有点阵痛，所以还是早点睡咯！大家晚安，梦里见！

Singapore Changi Airport

2007-09-07T15:52:00.000+08:00

Heavily pregnant in the drama "A Path Of Gold"

I love our airport!

We were filming one short scene at Terminal 2 yesterday and I come to appreciate how bright and clean and orderly our airport is.

Whenever I travel, I realise there is so much to do inside the departure hall, my only gripe is not having enough time to do so before the plane takes off. Not that I've been anywhere recently, and neither do I have the impulse to travel at the moment.

As much as we've got a beautiful airport, it's a place I don't always feel very good about. Whether I'm there to travel, to send someone off or to pick someone home, the emotional turbulence I have to go through each time doesn't make me like being there.

I'm the sort of the person who wants to travel, but when I know I'm going to be leaving home, I start to lose all excitement. That is not to say I don't enjoy my trips, but I guess maybe our airport is too homely, it makes leaving difficult.

If I'm there to send someone off, needless to say, this person means a lot to me. And usually it also signifies absence for an extended period of time. Parting is painful and on days like that, the airport always seems colder than usual.

When someone is coming back, the wait at the arrival hall always makes me dizzy with anticipation. I'm happy the person is coming back, yet sometimes the dynamics are a little awkward, because it's been too long since we last met.

So you see, while I am proud of our airport, its facilities and infrastructure, it is also a place that stirs up a concoction of feelings I don't derive anywhere else.

喜事

2007-09-03T22:28:00.001+08:00

昨天我们黄家办喜事，我还是第一次下跪敬茶。

结婚会被称为喜事我想代表着那应该是件快乐的事，不过要把一生寄托给另外一个人，然后长乡厮守还真是有一点让人害怕。

以前小时候，我希望自己在二十四岁结婚，因为我喜欢恋爱，也喜欢过安定的生活。
现在当然不可能二十四岁结婚啦，问我什么时候我也不敢说。思想成熟之后，越多顾虑，越多负担，越多自己规律的习惯，要和一个人一起生活，白头偕老，就变得更难。

这不代表我不想结婚。只是没有对婚姻抱着任何憧憬。对我来说，家庭排第一，工作排第二。我还是比较传统，喜欢安分的守护家庭。工作也只不过是为了让自己的脑筋灵活，不要与世隔绝，而不是为了证明什么。不过话虽然这么说，但是我相信夫唱妇随，所以要知道我的造化，就也得看我嫁的是个喜欢不抛头露面的贤妻良母，还是拥有自己事业的现代女性。

哎！反正感情的事可欲不可求，等时机到再看风使舵吧！

到处都要贴上双喜

可爱的大哥

笑的多灿烂的妈妈，和背后的“阿燕姐”

和我一起下跪的新郎

大哥还真会找镜头！

Nat actually said this picture is typical of post-marriage syndrome. Haha!

Which brings me to share, the other day, someone told me she ran away before she got married. I didn't used to understand why, because I've always wanted to get married at 24, and have babies before I turn 28, so that by the time my kid is 20, I'm only 48. Plenty of energy left to sit back， relax and enjoy old age. But these days, I realised that somehow getting married loses that wholesome appeal once you pass a certain age and that it can be quite nerve-wrecking to bind yourself to someone for the rest of your life.

My ex-college school mate got married on July 7th and I was truly happy for her. But before all the congratulatory hugs, I asked her how did she know for sure?
Suddenly, getting married at 24 seemed too early.
She shared that when they've come full circle, ultimately the security and comfort from someone you have been with long enough is good enough reason.

I guess it's nice to know there's someone who'd always be there for you "to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health, to love and to cherish 'till death do [them] part".

身外物

2007-09-03T03:22:00.000+08:00

那天和家人去看了《881》，后来竟然买了它的soundtrack！　里面有一首歌　“身外物”　的其中一段歌词让我听了很有启发。

“身体和财富都是身外物　
都是暂时借来完成短促的演出”

又有另一天，我跟朋友吃饭，她说想去减肥，想去做些皮肤护理，让自己不再为这些问题烦恼。老实说，我觉得她不需要去做这些，只要改掉一些坏习惯就会更漂亮。那当然只是我个人的意见，她不见得同意。

我猜，这些外表上的改变会让自己更有信心，是因为别人的眼光吧。我们的肉体本来就是呈现给别人看，所以因为在乎别人怎么看，希望他们会认同，才会要在外表上下功夫。

但是为什么需要别人来支撑我们的信心呢？这样我们会快乐吗？我想，一直在寻求别人的赞同只会让自己无法自拔，久而久之，要求一直在提高，也就会永远对自己不满足。

歌词的意义更深重。这些都是表面的，肤浅的，说它无足轻重也不太离谱。毕竟人生没有肯定，我们活着的每一天就是为了知道明天会怎么样。如果已经知道这条路的凹凸会在那里，那不是少了惊喜和乐趣吗？

爱惜自己，珍惜现在所拥有的，可欲不可求。反正还是要过日子的，不如安分一点，至少会快乐些。

Positive Sadness

2007-08-30T10:26:00.001+08:00

谢谢大家的关心和鼓励的话。

我没事，伤心还是会，不过我也知道他现在肯定没有那么痛苦了。那天去了他的守灵，呆了四个多钟头，凌晨四点多才回家。这可是我第一次呆上这么长的时间，因为他早上九点就要送去火化了。

我不舍得。

看见他安详的躺着，我很安慰他不再辛苦，可是一想到他那天的一举一动，我的眼泪又夺眶而出，抱着他的女儿痛哭一场。他的家人对我很好，让我觉得很自在，让我感受到大家庭的温馨。
我很喜欢大家庭，因为自己没有那种环境，却又喜欢热闹。也许就是因为这样，自己以后想多生几个小孩吧！嘿嘿！

当他的女儿跟我说他父亲的过去，我又忍不住哭了。不过哭了之后，在伤心的当儿，我也领悟了不少，感觉自己好像有进入了人生的另一个阶段。他的女婿说：“She blessed Mical and got blessed in return." 我想大概是这样吧。因为每当我想起他，心里就有很温暖的感觉，就好像那天他在病床上抚摸着我的头的那种体会。

I really appreciate the kind words from everyone to help me pull through this period. I will still be sad, but it's a positive sort of sadness. Because I know he is now free from sickness and pain. Don't worry dearies, I'm fine, because I know I am blessed.

By Mical and his family.

哭了

2007-08-28T00:10:00.000+08:00

今天我忍不住哭了。

几天前，我去看一位得了肺癌的老人家。
他很喜欢看我的戏，还说他会等到十二月看《黄金路》。
负责人告诉我他最多还能活三个月。
我心里很难过，因为现在离十二月有四个月。
他举起右手，算一算，还跟女儿点头说可以。

可是今天早上他去世了。

我很后悔，没有在他的身边。

那天他躺在病床上，左手因为被癌细胞占领，隐隐作痛，又不能说话，不能吃东西。
但他还会逗我笑，眼神明亮的望着我。

那天下着大雨，我这一生都不会忘记。

我的心真的很痛。

Mical，你在我心里，已经留下了泪水也洗不掉的脚印。
希望你现在摆脱了病魔，不再痛苦了。

Though our meeting was brief, you have found a special place in my heart.
For you have taught me how to appreciate, how to love, and how to live.
From the bottom of my heart --
Thank you Mical.
I will miss you.

Touched

2007-08-27T11:08:00.001+08:00

Stepping Out

2007-08-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

Hello! I'm so sorry for missing in action! Didn't mean to leave you all in the lurch. :( We've been filming in the studio all week, and I really haven't found time to rest well, eat well and sleep well. Finally managed to get a day off today and just had a nice milky shower, so yummy!

And oh! I've got presents from Hong Kong! From a beloved friend! Thank you, muaks!

Delicious! Though I still like the ones I bake myself :p Heehee!

Mini Blythe Doll in Minnie Costume.
Isn't she adorable?!?

Another Blythe doll

The beginning of this week week was fraught with a lot of emotional unpleasantries, which eased out as the week wore on. I don't lament that these occurrences take place because more often than not, they unlock complex emotions within me that I never knew existed. And this, I reckon, is particularly helpful when I have to portray the emotions of the characters I play.

Post turbulence was the period I gave myself to reflect on certain random ideas. I came to realise that I've been so caught up with the pace of life and the responsibilities thrust upon me that it sometimes stresses me out unnecessarily. I form higher expectations of myself, sometimes based on what others want, all in the attempt to play the perfect role at home, at work and in my social circle.

Truth is, I'll never be.

Not that I've given up trying to be a better person, but first I got to get the direction right. I haven't got the perfect answer, but there has always been a beacon beckoning me, only I might have lost sight of it occasionally. I believe it's time to abandon my course and steer towards the unwavering light.

I am truly grateful that I am blessed to have people who love me enough to bother.

宝贝父女兵

2007-08-19T15:08:00.000+08:00

For those who missed my previous entries, you might want to check the June/July archives for some behind the scenes pictures and videos.
Stay tuned!

排排站，查查看好

2007-08-18T21:36:00.001+08:00

今天有口福了！午餐和晚餐都由《排排站，查查看》的制作队伍包下了！

禄江和智诚真的好可爱，一直取笑我。到最后，连收场也被戏弄了一番。会不会播出来我就不知道，我看情形应该是会吧！好傻的我真丢脸。哎呀！

他们两人真是把我逗得笑不笼嘴。
我好佩服他们主持人的功力，牙尖嘴利，一针见血。
偶像！

第一道菜，没人敢吃太饱

评审团

积极的小朋友

“记者招待会”。
小朋友是拍个不停，好可爱！

最积极的“记者”

被耍了！呜呼！

Every Reason To Be Happy

2007-08-17T22:44:00.001+08:00

这几年来的写照，个个都是发字内心的笑容。每张都有它特别的回忆，说来话长，就还是让大家看照片吧！　这些照片描述了我最近的心情。不知道为什么，就是觉得特别开怀。可能是前几晚做了一个恶梦，让我领悟到生命的可贵，所以提醒我要珍惜身边的一切人和事。

找灵感

2007-08-12T11:15:00.001+08:00

正在为马来西亚的一分读物写一篇文章。
找不到灵感，所以晚睡早起。
明天要截稿了！

Hope

2007-08-12T01:23:00.001+08:00

Have faith, even in the most dire situations.
May all global victims of recent natural and economic disasters find the strength to pull through the toughest times.

I found this picture on the Internet and would like to share it with everyone.
The balloons lend a cheery atmosphere to the otherwise dreary town.
An Afghan boy sells balloons at Wazir Abad neighborhood in Kabul, Afghanistan, Thursday, March 30, 2006.
(AP Photo/Rodrigo Abd)

五颜六色的世界

2007-08-12T00:49:00.001+08:00

为什么主题是五颜六色的世界呢？
那天去的拍摄地点，给我的感觉很鲜艳，因为有很多颜色的地砖。
想想，其实我们的世界真的很美丽，而我也很感激老天爷给我一双看的见的眼睛，让我能珍惜眼前的一切。

不过最近看了报纸，让我感到心寒，发现世界虽然美丽，但是却还是带了悲伤给很多人。

美国Mississippi大桥倒塌；　亚洲几个国家面临淹水，地震，台风；还有昨天全球股市大暴跌。总之好像灾难接踵而来，谁也逃不过。

受害者肯定不少。

看见所爱的人遭受这样的灾难，心情又怎么能漂亮起来呢？

世界失去了色彩。

我真诚的希望问题早日迎刃而解，不要再让这么多人陷入困境，悲痛万分。

Question

2007-08-09T00:53:00.001+08:00

Half full or Half Empty?

Full or Empty

I bet this is such a common question it's almost boring. Haha, to me, it doesn't really matter, because if it's empty here, it's full somewhere. Like in my tummy.

This was a very yummy glass of freshly squeezed orange juice from Vil'age at Heeren. We were filming there the other day and the manager was so obliging with the food and beverages (although eventually we didn't order any food because it wasn't necessary for the scene). He's such a nice man!

I'm so spoilt.

宠物

2007-08-07T21:57:00.001+08:00

有一天我跟一个朋友到另一个朋友的家看小猫，因为我的朋友有打算要领养，所以就陪她去。这两只小猫是从外面捡回来照顾的。主人希望能给它们安排新家，因为他们已经有八只野猫和狗了。本来自己也想带一只回家，但是家人不是特别赞成，所以可能还需要一段时间说服他们才行！

人与人之间的感情很复杂。对一个人的要求，期待，往往会造成心灵上的失望，不悦甚至空虚。一个人会对不起另一个人，可是宠物就不会。宠物容易满足，所以我看见它们，永远都会快乐，而这是有时侯人与人之间的相处无法达到的。

有宠物的人就会了解，那种你还没起床，它就在房门外等你，而当你一开门，它就迫不及待地往你身上跳的那种感觉。你真的可以感受到它对你的爱。而那是一种很纯的爱。除了要你喂饱它，其他的它不会在意了。

如果我养只宠物，让自己有个寄托，有个管道散发内心的爱，这样生活就会圆满了。

真的好可爱

看的出它真的好小好小。都还没有办法自力更生。

怎么拍它都不正面对着相机。没办法，它可能有点害羞。

艺术剧照

2007-08-05T15:25:00.001+08:00

今天不小心当了人家的　“电灯炮”，真不好意思。因为拍摄时间有些拖延，所以我们三个人等了两个钟头。报纸都看了差不多，我就识趣地　“消失”，　好让两人能有些私人空间。结果跑去拍了些艺术剧照。。。嘿嘿！

导演在与我的两个哥哥讨论

谈接下来的镜头

彩排

二哥看见大哥

明争暗斗

哇！刚才场地气氛很严肃，看了那短短的一场戏，真的很有火力，太厉害了！虽然两人都是压抑着愤怒，但是哥们真的很棒！突然有《无间道》的味道。虽然场地和剧情不同，但是哥们都很有魅力，所以很期待看他们两人之间接下来的火花！

大哥，二哥，万岁！

Yummy

2007-08-05T01:17:00.000+08:00

While waiting for my car to be serviced yesterday, I went for a little test drive of the new Suzuki Grand Vitara 2W Drive. Love the big, spacious interior! I've always liked SUVs actually, and I almost bought the 4W Drive (that was before the 2W Drive came out) when I was contemplating between that and my current one, which was cheaper. In the end I chose the cheaper one because I was persuaded by a dear friend that by the time I pay up the bank loan for the Grand Vitara, I would have actually paid more than $100K for a vehicle. Imagine how much I can save every month if I chose the cheaper option? So after doing a bit of calculation, I decided to rein in my desires and be economical instead.

But that doesn't mean I don't drool when I see big cars.

The thing with the one I test drove yesterday is that, it is big and macho, and very comfortable, but it doesn't feel very sturdy. Because it's a big car, and the centre of gravity is higher, so it's much easier for the car to flip too. Dangerous!

That's why I always get torn between SUVs and performance cars. Performance cars on the other hand feel very much stronger and safer, so it's not only a luxury to drive, you feel protected too. Then of course you pay more for all that.

Sigh, I reckon the best option is a performance SUV.
Like the Porsche Cayenne, Mercedes GL class or the BMW X5.

Drool.

I shall dream on lah.

罪魁祸首

2007-08-02T20:45:00.001+08:00

Thanks dearies for your kind and caring words. I'm feeling so much better after medication and rest. I still have no appetite and feeling weak, but at least I'm not running to the toilet anymore. Other than the irritation diarrhoea, dinner last night was fun, because a group of friends and I had quite a wacky time!

Priceless!

The "Culprit"
就是因为这麻辣火锅，让我肚子无法承受。
前几天刚刚看了由古天乐和刘若英主演的《生日快乐》才会想吃。
咳！下次不敢了。

Lending a helping arm...
我调皮的朋友就是爱玩，这只不过是其中一张搞笑的照片。
我们昨晚真的一直捧腹大笑，因为太饱了，所以一笑起来很想吐。

Nike Poster

Adidas Shop front
Doesn't it look alive to you?

Sick

2007-08-02T09:37:00.001+08:00

I'm sick :( Been having a queasy stomach the whole night and can't stop going to the toilet today. Sorry dearies, no new posts for the time being. I need to lie down. Miss ya all~

变形金刚金刚

2007-07-31T00:56:00.001+08:00

这象什么呢？

是我在看Transformers的时候吃的爆米花 (popcorn).
哈哈！看起来象怪物吧？

Transformers真的很精彩。虽然小时候就有这部卡通片，但是好像男生比较喜欢，所以我对它的故事不是很了解。看了电影才知道原来机械人是有感情的。其中老大Optimus Prime最有性格。

看完电影之后，在路上开车时，开始幻想，如果我前面的垃圾车，突然变身成为金刚，那多酷啊！

思潮起伏很

2007-07-29T14:17:00.001+08:00

很喜欢最近的天气，不会太热，也不会太湿，让我很想捧着一本书，还有我最喜欢的咖啡，躲在一角，让人找不到。多自由！不过现在喝着自己泡的咖啡，和大家分享心声也是很大的享受。因为你们愿意听，所以我愿意写。真的很珍惜你们对我的关心和爱护。读到你们在tagboard留的话，真的让我很感动。可能因为成长的环境吧，我很少听到周围长辈对我说这样的话。久而久之就不再有期待，因为没有期待就不会失望嘛。不过如果让我意想不到，那就是bonus 啦！所以你们是我的惊喜，我的bonus!　谢谢，真的很爱你们！

我想唯一能报答你们的就是努力把工作做好，把自己最好的一面呈现给大家。你们为我加油，我也会发愤图强，不辜负大家！

有人问我除了咖啡还喜欢和什么饮料。我好像都喜欢刺激性的饮料，好像Teh-Si（奶茶），酸梅汁。偶尔也喜欢凉茶，果汁之类的饮料。不过我们公司餐厅的果汁档发明了果汁加Yakult，还真的蛮好喝的。其实在外面我很少叫饮料，可能拍戏累，喜欢喝自然水，滋润全身，也不会因为某种饮料遗留后的口感感到不舒服。况且，你们这么多人常嘱咐我多喝水，我怎么可以当耳边风呢？

好啦，咖啡喝完了，我也得去忙些别的，下次再聊吧！
希望大家有个美好的星期天。

韩国拉面

2007-07-27T23:58:00.001+08:00

看了是不是会流口水？我现在自己看了都很想再吃。从来没有吃过又便宜又好吃的韩国拉面。就在Central Mall 的食阁。很多地方的Kimchi Ramen 看起来很辣，不过都淡淡没有味。不过这个真的不一样，可以算辣，不过我最爱吃辣辣的东西，所以还可以应付。而且很喜欢吃快熟面，你们说象不象呢？

L.O.V.E

2007-07-27T23:01:00.001+08:00

Finally get down to watching this movie. I used to adore Jude Law, but that was when he acted with Nicole Kidman in Blue Mountain. In Alfie, he seemed like he's playing himself, the playboy. His brownie points has just effectively dropped to zero.

In the final scene, he said he has everything, but no peace of mind. And when you don't have that, you don't have anything.

Hmm...interesting.

Well, the story goes he just can't stick to one woman, call it commitment phobia, call it fleeting desires, the point is, the women give their all to him but gets nothing back, and he doesn't feel bad about dumping them, or being dumped for that matter, until the end, when it bites back at him. Ah, that's when he left the audience with that quote to think about.

Which reminded me of this article I read in a recent fashion magazine. There was a paragraph that mentioned how there are young successful divorcés who would date around post divorce. If they married young, they are doing so to make up for lost time; If they were dumped by their wives, they are doing so to boost their own ego. But after playing musical chairs, most of them would want to settle down, because nothing beats having someone to look after them, cook for them and be there for them at the end of the day.

Hmm, I guess that's what Alfie is about too.

Some women think that's so chauvinistic. In this egalitarian society, I guess, women are more empowered, and no longer need to take things lying down. But my stand is still quite traditional. I seriously don't mind cooking and looking after the family while the man brings the bacon home, because that's what I think a woman should and is capable of doing.

Now before all the ladies turn against me, this is purely the way I was brought up to think. So don't hold it against me. Some values cannot change after so long. Still, I don't particularly advocate being a housewife too, because homemakers also need to have their own hobbies, passion, or work, to keep them motivated, energised and youthful.

So how different are the wants of men and women?

I was having dinner with a girlfriend and she told me how she is facing quarter-life crisis. I don't know what that really means (I guess it's not something everyone goes through and even if we do, it turns out differently). Hers is an empty sort of feeling, of not knowing what you are really pursuing that will complete your life.

I suggested that she probably needs a man. She denies.
Then maybe it's romantic love she wants. She denies.

Gee, women are always in self-denial. Haha, it's true! I admit to that sometimes. Hee hee...

She says she doesn't want to have a serious relationship.
She says it's tiring to get to know someone all over again.

True, but isn't the lack of stability that's really tiring? I mean, when you date around as opposed to having a serious relationship. And you keep having to introduce yourself to many people instead of spending time getting to know someone better. At the end of the name game, you realise you don't really know anyone well, and they don't really know you. Sort of like Alfie, who is rich on the outside but poor emotionally.

You see, I figure the entire universe consists of relationships so how can we human beings not need relationships? Sure, we have friendship and family companionship, who needs love? I beg to differ. I think different forms of relationships satisfy different aspects of our lives. And romantic love is one big concept that plays a huge part in our lives.

Otherwise, why would people like me be so hooked on to melodramatic Korean love stories? Why would people commit crimes and do silly things when love goes wrong? Why is BGR such a big issue in schools and at home?

Because when you love and be loved, nothing else matters.

Sleepless

2007-07-27T00:32:00.001+08:00

My third coffee of the day. Now I'm Sleepless in Singapore...

平时咖啡对我没什么困扰，晚上喝了还是能够入睡。不过这是我今天的第三杯，所以现在清醒的很。糟了！

新达城变了

2007-07-27T00:19:00.001+08:00

天啊，我真的太久没有踏进新达城（Suntec City）竟然有那么多改变。我太孤陋寡闻了！刚才和朋友吃完饭后，决定去走一走，消化晚餐，没想到，我们两就好像旅客一样，对整个环境有点陌生。有扩大商店的范围是好事，因为目的是要让购物者有更多选择。新达城的某个角落也增设了一个室内音乐水池，和灯光的配合下，还蛮有外国情调的。当时正播着　"What A Wonderful World"，真的好象在另一个世界闲逛。虽然店都关了，但是清静也是一种享受。

鱼儿也要看电视的。。。

真的好新颖，又可以赏鱼，又可以看最新电影的预告片。

Cars and Such

2007-07-26T00:02:00.001+08:00

I think this car is cute! I'd probably want to drive it for fun, but I doubt it's practical for me because I have far too many things to store. But then again, the advice I got the last time I bought my current car was that a small car may have less space, but that will prevent me from over-cluttering it.

True true.

I used to like driving performance cars because I actually enjoy driving and with a good car, you really appreciate what it can do. Couple of years back, I went for a BMW advanced driving course, that taught things like proper driving posture, defensive driving, over-steering, under-steering etc etc. It was only at the race course in Malaysia, that I could ram the accelerator of the BMW 330i without worrying about crashing or getting caught. The 330i is a very stable car and the way it hugs the road when you corner makes it all the more exciting to go fast. Ok, I admit, speeding is thrilling and I love it! Moreover, that sense of thrill can't be replicated anywhere else. Hmm, then again, I take it back. Maybe on deathly roller coasters too, because I remembered that feeling the last time I went to Cape Town and attempted "suicide". But that's another story for another time.

The thing is, sitting on a roller coaster, you're not in control, unlike driving. That's why it's adrenalin rush from fear versus adrenalin rush from excitement. I'd choose the latter. Let me reaffirm my stand, I enjoy the drive very much, but I do not advocating speeding.

Now for me, practicality overrides desire, that's why I sold my dear Alfie and switched to something more economical. I still want to test performance cars if I'm privileged enough to be invited, but in the meantime, I'm perfectly happy with what I have.

Changing Taste in Music

2007-07-25T00:36:00.000+08:00

Recently I'm into J-pop and K-drama. Ok, maybe I'm a bit slow, considering the fever is sort of dying down, hmm, or is it still going on? Well I'm not so sure anymore, maybe cos' I've been too out of touch with the latest trends. Whatever it is, I didn't used to understand all that craze over J-pop or J-fashion, but guess what, I bought Namie Amuro's new album and absolutely loved it. She's been around for a long time, but somehow her style never struck a chord with me, until today.

Her music sort of has a big band feel to it, especially "Hide and Seek" which has the sounds of trumpets and drums. Never mind I don't understand Japanese, I'm equally drawn into the tune and rhythm. That's why they say music transcends all boundaries.

If you ask me what sort of music I listen to, I can't name you a specific genre, because my taste changes depending on my mood. For a while I was into New Age stuff, like Tony O' Connor (sounds of rainforest, sea waves etc), then I liked jazz (Michael Buble, Rod Stewart), then classical fusion (Bond, Maksim), then french music, (Janet Siddel) then one genre I'm not so sure what it's called but I shall just name it contemporary (High Society, Pink Martini), then lounge music, then "tango-like" music, and now, any sort of music that has a unique twang to it. That's why I love JJ's new song 《杀手》because I love the sounds of the gu-zheng and guitar mix, as well as one of his other songs that has er hu accompaniment. It's surprisingly refreshing !

I'm totally for fusion, because it's creative and the combinations are countless.

做回女人

2007-07-24T23:13:00.001+08:00

那天拍戏的花瓣被我哥故意弄残，结果我赶快在他踩坏之前，先拍张照。嘿嘿，自从有了这个造型后，终于可以做回女人，扮美美。有些人说很怪，不过希望习惯就成自然啦！
真要感谢上头给我的机会，参与这个大制作，还让我尝试换造型。我一定会好好努力的！大家为我加油ok?

Fusion 日本料理

2007-07-19T22:57:00.000+08:00

今天和朋友去大吃一顿，fusion 日本料理。环境不错，食物特别。以下可能会让你们流口水。。。

Mocktail + Hot Ochar

搅了之后Mocktail变色了。。。

Black Pepper Agedashi Toufu

California Handroll

Potato Cheese Souffle

"Golden Pillow"
Udon & mushroom wrapped in beancurd skin

Fried Chicken with Bonito Sauce

Toufu Cheesecake

饿了吧？嘿嘿！

我的守护天使

2007-07-18T20:58:00.001+08:00

我自从考到驾照后，发生过三次意外。不过都不是特别严重，只是亏了钱财。现在这辆车里有两个守护使者。这个是躺在前面的PJ，是我的宝贝。他很可爱吧！

改天拍了后面的“虎儿”再给你们看。那是我背后的靠山，威猛地看住后面的车子。嘿嘿！

黄金路开镜仪式

2007-07-17T00:43:00.001+08:00

今天是《黄金路》的开镜仪式。不是每一部戏都有，很多时候跟监制的宗教信仰有关。不过《黄金路》是一部重头剧，所以就少不了讨个吉利，希望接下来的五个月里，拍摄会顺利，收视率会标榜。

我们在联手切烧猪

凤玲和我在仪式之前躲在Wardrobe纳凉，顺便拍照，嘿嘿！

左边是忠厚老实，聪明理智（不过后来剧情发展就变不一样）的大哥。
右边是英俊潇洒，聪明惊人的二哥。

我们黄家的全家福

黄金两家的全家福
南星大哥和Joey (斌辉身边的女生）是母亲领养的

林家就只有文永大哥和凤玲两人相依为命，不过是有钱人哦！

其中一条复杂的恋情　－－　凤玲爱哥哥，哥哥爱我。哎！

随便凑在一起的拍的。中间穿一身黑的是佩璇，她是马来西亚过来的演员。

最后就是我无聊拍的。嘿嘿！

SPD Charity Show

2007-07-17T00:09:00.000+08:00

To my dearest Jolliteers who were there yesterday to support me, thank you so much!! Sorry I left early because I had some things to attend to, didn't mean to disappoint you all.
Will see you all another time okie?
Here're some pictures I took backstage...

Dawn, Jeanette and I

Lee Teng and I

Fiona and I

My "husband-to-be" Nat (in my new show) and I

Felicia, Dawn and I dressed out from our pretty outfits

BBQ Gathering

2007-07-15T00:15:00.000+08:00

对不起宝贝们，最近在忙一些琐碎的事，所以没有消息。•oops•
那天我们《宝贝父女兵》的烧烤会，顺便庆祝两个副助导的生日。。。我就忙着拍照。

没有她，我们就没有satay 和chicken wings吃。Yummy...

Birthday Girls...

我是帮忙切蛋糕，不是馋嘴哦！

我会很想念大家的。

明天就开工了！希望一切顺利！

对海的畏惧不过想

2007-07-09T22:31:00.001+08:00

这是我几年前去旅行时拍的。当时很喜欢海边，很喜欢晒太阳，觉得古铜色的皮肤很健康。现在当然是见到太阳能避就避，因为太多紫外线对皮肤真的不好。现在年轻还看不到，以后老了，就会知道它造成的伤害有多大。
或许你们看不出，我其实对海有恐惧。今天去上潜水课，在泳池学时有点怕怕，好像不太会应付。虽然过后熟悉了就觉得还蛮好玩，但是毕竟我们将会在出海拍这场戏，所以还是有点怕。

为什么我会怕海呢？

说出来可能会觉得好笑。不要以为是因为怕沙鱼。虽然以前我好喜欢看Jaws的电影。

我曾经被Jelly fish刺过。那个时候还蛮小的，和父母到海边去玩，我一点都不怕海，还游得很开心。不过我在水底时，隐约看见了个半透明的物体在我面前漂过。我当时没有多想，不过上了岸，去冲凉的时候，就开始觉得痛痒。一段时期后，也是年幼的期间，有大人警告我不要赤脚往海里跑，如果有King Crab，会咬死我。因为刚好有人抓了只King Crab 所以我就真的害怕了。

长大后，本来更不会被大人的故事吓着，虽然如此，不过谁知道我竟然对无望无际的大海更有种畏惧。当时是自己背包旅行，去了南非。我租了一辆车，从Cape Town 驾到Cape Point （整个非洲的最南部）在上面的灯塔，看见了Atlantic Ocean 和Indian Ocean 的交集点，海和天的界限是一片模糊。宇宙就在我眼前。

Atlantic Ocean

Indian Ocean

在灯塔上的标志，告诉旅客不同地区的方向。照片蒙因为下大雨。

我还记得，第一天去，下很大的雨，我爬到灯塔上，什么都看不到。我不甘心，隔天又花了一整天开车回到Cape Point，终于让我看到了。当时的心情非笔墨所能形容。觉得我们人是这么的渺小。在大自然的规律中，我们真的是经不起侵袭的。我就想如果有一天我掉进眼前的海里，根本就是死路一条。没有人会听见我的呼唤，也没有人会注意我的存在。

就这样，我对海产生了畏惧。一直到现在，仍无法把在Cape Point 的体会抛开。

Dive Lesson 1

2007-07-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

Today Nat and I went down to Raffles Country Club for our first dive lesson. Or rather snorkeling lesson. We had to familiarise with breathing through the tube, swimming with fins, nose dive into the bottom of the pool, hold our breath, clear water from the tube and boat jump. This is all training for a scene we have to do in our upcoming drama.

It was quite uncomfortable initially because all of a sudden I couldn't breathe through my nose (breathed in water instead), and I kept swallowing water that entered through the tube. *yuck* Then I had to nose dive to the bottom of the pool but because I'm quite buoyant, I needed to wear a weight belt so I would sink. At the bottom, my ears hurt quite a bit at the beginning but after a while, once I got the hang of it, the whole stint was quite fun! It's quite amazing swimming with fins, cos' I can move so fast!

Actually, my favourite part was the boat jump! I love the SPLASH feeling and I couldn't stop giggling once I hit the water, so much so that instead of diving deep into the pool, I spit and splatter up onto the surface. *haha* That was fun!!!

Goofing around...

Nat, Sherwin (our cute instructor) and Me

娃娃

2007-07-08T00:45:00.000+08:00

我爱上了娃娃！
这些都是韩国手工制作的娃娃，好漂亮哦！不过价钱不便宜,要好几百块！我只是喜欢欣赏，不可能花钱去收集。我就是对这些anime-like的东西非常感兴趣！

漂亮吧！

LONG HAIR

2007-07-07T17:58:00.001+08:00

长发真的好麻烦！花了两天，总共十多个小时吧，做出了美美的长发。刚开始长到腰，现在剪短了一点，下个星期做新戏的造型时，可能又会剪。这是我自己style 的 look，刚刚买了新的curling tong就自己弄圈头发，真的不容易，所以我又对化妆间的精英们有崇高的尊敬。这不是新角色的样子哦，不要误会。刚才去了朋友的ROM　所以打扮了一番。今天七月七日2007年是很多新人结婚的好日子。真幸福！我现在要出门了，如果今晚不太累就在update 吧！

收工了！

2007-07-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

我们收工了！我拍完的那一刻，心情还蛮复杂的。说到底，我们大家都合作的很愉快，在没有太大的压力下，嘻嘻哈哈地度过了难熬的日子。所以当这一切就这样结束了，觉得有点可惜，有点难过。

还记得当年拍摄《梦在手里》的时候，我们大家真的很投契。可能因为恺威的关系吧，大家都很照顾他，经常会带他去吃喝玩乐，不想他在这里太寂寞无聊。也就因为有培养感情，所以久而久之变熟一点。也可能那个时候Channel U 和 Channel 8 刚合拼，所以同事之间就擦出了不少友情的火花。这种感觉真的很好，因为那是很真挚的。恺威回香港，把我们的戏画上了句点，很可惜，因为大家都知道合作的伙伴很难有机会再重饰同样的组合。

可爱的恺威。

每一部戏对我来说都有难忘的回忆而我通常会带走一些教诲。无论是前辈们也好，刚入行的也好，临时演员也好，每个所扮演的角色不同，但是都重要，所以每个都是我的学习对象。这部戏也学了不少。

谢谢《宝贝父女兵》台前幕后的所有工作人员。你们都让我获益不浅！

看我怎么上我家的阳台。。。

爱上坏男人

2007-07-03T18:50:00.001+08:00

昨晚我看了这部电影，爱上了男主角。人家说男人不坏女人不爱，我想我大概可以了解吧！在剧中，他是个生活在恶劣环境的青少年，被领养，所以很多时候都无拘无束。可是他本性不坏，而这就是他吸引我看下去的地方。虽然外表对任何事都漠不关心，但其实很在乎，心地善良，后来改邪归正。当然他在跳舞时散发的那种信心和魅力，更是无法挡。这种坏男人更另我陶醉了！前阵子，看了《恶魔在身边》，贺军翔的角色也是一样，是个好的坏男人，我当时也对他情有独钟。哈哈，好就没有发花痴了，因为好久没有看戏了！

这是我非常喜欢的剧照。可惜照片捕捉不到浪漫。在看的时候，你可以很清楚地看到夕阳从他们两人之间反照在镜头上，画面很美，也很浪漫。他们的舞配合的很好，在加上Magic Hour的作用，我也开始幻想自己能跳出这种水准，和心爱的男人沉浸在其中。

原来男主角也有演　“She's The Man". 我记得里面有个男生，身材超棒，样子蛮帅，不过没有想到是他。洋人就是这么多变化，头发一剃掉就好像完全变成另一个人。

说了这么多，都还没跟大家介绍。他就是 Channing Tatum. :)

帅哥

2007-07-03T18:47:00.001+08:00

我不会跳舞，所以特别欣赏会跳舞的人。如果他是帅哥，就更不用说了。

只有一句话：

帅！

Disney

2007-07-02T23:22:00.001+08:00

我很喜欢Disneyland，所以任何跟Disney有关的我都特别爱。有个朋友去了香港的Disneyland就买了个纪念品给我。真的很感动，也很开心！想想其实很多小玩意儿就能够让我快乐整天。记得几年前在拍〈梦在手里〉的时候，我们演员都很融洽。有位同事就喜欢在我车身上偷放Hello Kitty 的magnets.　好笑的是，大家都知道他放在那里，就只有我，懵懵懂懂的，根本没有察觉车身上有什么不同。然后我会把车开回家，隔天来上班他们才会笑着告诉我。

Magnets 虽小，但却带来了很多回忆。

2007-07-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

第一次击鼓，之前都没有受过训练，所以当场就要打的有声有色。哈哈！

还好有师傅！他是南方醒狮团的队长。很有气势的年轻爸爸。

又和青海要打起来。这是我们最后一天一起拍的一场戏。我笑着说这部我们演死对头，谁知道下一部我们演情侣。哈哈！就不用整天看到彼此都要扮个样。当我们在拍这个镜头的时候，感觉已经很靠近了，（差不多要斗鸡眼了！）但是画面上看来还有一段距离对吗？

生病

2007-07-02T21:35:00.001+08:00

生病是很痛苦的，我已经差不多拍了三个星期的厂景，在这段期间都是抱病的，所以鼻音很重。本来好多了，可是有一晚，拍了我在厂景冲凉的戏之后，我的鼻音又回来了。那晚，真的很冷很冷，不过没有照片，因为冲凉嘛，不是很方便。Heehee...所以就让你们看我病的照片吧！不过算是“假病”啦！

还记得那天我喝了kopi-o之后，精神的很，可是又偏偏拍我病入膏肓的戏，所以要我不动，还蛮不容易。

有两台手机因为另一个功能比较多，但是暂时不能看中文或打中文字（因为没有买它的软件），所以有些不方便。不过还好啦，我平时也只用一台，那天是刚好在和我的导师通短讯，用的都是中文。

看看我们有一样的电话。很巧的是，承熹也有同一个款式的手机，只不过他的是褐色的。上一部“凡间新鲜人”就和俊雄用同一个样的手机，现在又和这部戏的演员这么有默契！真好玩。

我的刚update software所以很多之前手机本身储存的themes都不见了。Jaqueline 很乐意地与我分享她的下载。

Rest in peace

2007-06-30T02:14:00.001+08:00

An ex-university course mate of mine passed away today.

I don't know what to say.

Although we were not close, we spoke a couple of times and I remembered him as the entertainer back in school. He loved to perform and he was good at it. But now it seems that beneath all that showmanship and smiles, he was a troubled man.
Perhaps he was driven to desperate measures, perhaps it was an accident.
I would never know and don't want to guess.
As the his life drained its colour away, I hope he finds what he had always been seeking.

Rest in peace.

感觉

2007-06-27T23:20:00.001+08:00

今天“老爸”买了豆沙饼，“婆婆”煮了红豆汤，我们在厂里好像迷你野餐！好幸福哦！还有我今天才发现原来我们餐厅的kopi-o还蛮好喝的！可能是冷的关系吧！

记得有一天我的朋友问我最喜欢喝什么咖啡，我就说cappuccino。他就跟我分析，其实人会喜欢一种饮料跟那个饮料本身的品质无关。而是当我们在享用那个饮料的时候所处在的环境，当时的心情和饮料对五官的抨击。想想他说的也不是没理。因为要我说为什么会提名cappuccino而不是mocha or expresso,我也答不上。反正就是一种感觉。就好像我现在喝咖啡不喜欢加糖了，那跟口感无关，而是因为朋友的影响！以前总是很理所当然的放糖，渐渐变成了习惯，现在才发现苦咖啡在舌后的甜蜜。

我可能从今以后会对新传媒餐厅的kopi-o 情有独中，因为有种雪中送炭的感觉。

Daisies Inspired

2007-06-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

Hihi all my beloved :) *HUGS*
Sorry I haven't been updating my blog in a while. Haven't got many pictures to post because there is less room for distractions in studio, so we tend to get more work done quickly. Plus, the show is coming to an end soon! I always have mixed feelings when this happens, because there is the relief of finishing a project, and also the apprehension of what comes next. I'll have another project immediately after this, which will take me through all the way to November. It's a long project but my role isn't very heavy so I should be able to find some time to rest in between.

Many of you asked about my illness, so sweet of you all. *muak* I'm all recovered and I feel ok, but my nose is blocked, so I sound terribly nasal. Filming in studio is very monotonous because it's always script read, camera rehearsal, actual take, cut to next scene, script read, cameral rehearsal, actual take and so on... But it is only with monotony will we be able to appreciate the colourful life we have otherwise. I found this picture on the Internet and it is of one of my favourite flowers. Even in the face of rain, it sparkles and smiles. That's my inspiration.

FUN

2007-06-26T23:09:00.000+08:00

这场戏特别好拍，因为我们大家都笑到掉牙。
就连导演在楼上也忍不住笑了起来。你看我们这么鬼马的表情就知道了。

我和阿莲的烛光晚餐。。。

硬硬的饭，冷冷的菜和沙丁鱼。
还蛮好吃的。：）

Sabotaged!

2007-06-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

我觉得他们好可爱，好像在打苍蝇一样。
剧情是说他们要来放火烧我的家，那我就和婆婆还有阿莲一起射弹珠。
哈哈！！

JJ

2007-06-23T11:09:00.000+08:00

我好喜欢JJ的新歌唱《杀手》！！好有神秘感。他的MV也真的让我更喜欢他的这首歌。
他在编曲上的中西合拼真的让我耳目一新，好有创意。希望有机会能跟他合作。

Marilyn Monroe

2007-06-22T17:14:00.000+08:00

I was watching a programme on cable in studio yesterday while waiting for my turn on set that was talking about the history of Hollywood. I was completely mesmerised by the snippets of movies Marilyn Monroe used to star in. She was gorgeous and glorious in her time, but her private life was in a mess. She grew up in foster homes with no parental love, got married at 16, then divorced and set her sights at becoming an actress. All the marriages she subsequently had, failed and she eventually died from sleeping pill overdose on her 36th birthday.

Often, we pass judgement based on what we see on the surface, choosing to believe that our eyes won't deceive us. But how much do we really know? Beneath that fame, sex appeal and womanly allure, she was just like any other girl who had her own issues to deal with.

I don't know much about her, and I'm not sure anyone really does, but from the bit of Googling and Youtubing I did, I have newfound respect for this legend.

This is her song "Diamonds Are a Girl's Best Friend" and after watching this, and Kylie Minogue's version, I must say, Marilyn's cooing still moves me.

Still Sick

2007-06-19T23:07:00.000+08:00

谢谢大家的慰问和鼓励！我最近都没有机会看自己的戏，不过拍完后会找机会看看，才能够明白一些好心人给的评语。
我的病还没有完全好，现在鼻音很重。厂里很冷，所以也没有太大的帮助。不过大家都还蛮体谅我的，所以我非常感激。我已经看了医生，也很定时的吃药，现在就只能一天过一天，让身体和病菌作战。有在恢复当中，所以不要太担心啦！

Thank you all so much for your care and concern, luv ya all!
*muak*

一家人

2007-06-19T22:53:00.001+08:00

这是我的一家人。戏外看来还蛮幸福美满的，爸爸长的高大威猛，妈妈是绝世美女。

但是戏内呢。。。

这是今天在厂里拍的。监制亲自下来拍开头的画面。
我和老爸是不是有黑帮的感觉呢？

这是我和妈妈在戏里最亲热的镜头了。
她是武林高手，所以我在这里被她制服。
你们放心，拍的时候没有真的用力，只是要演的好像很痛。

感化院

2007-06-19T22:39:00.000+08:00

哈哈，终于能有一点点的时间下载照片。我的储存卡都快爆满了！
对不起哦，让你们久等了。不过人家都说好的东西是值得等的啦！哈哈！
照片好不好不是我决定的，不过还是希望不会让你们失望。

这是我戏里面十六岁被关在感化院的造型。头发好像剪短了是不是？
其实没有，只是发型师很巧妙的把我的“金尾巴”收起来，厉害吧！
如果没有化妆间的精英，我们也难有这么多变化的造型。

这场戏是在很ulu的地方拍的，而且夜深人静，我还在其中一个房间大展歌喉，哈哈！就是因为没人听，才敢唱。

我跑了好多次，因为是说我当晚逃跑的剧情。

还蛮好玩的。　

病了！

2007-06-15T23:28:00.000+08:00

我生病了！来得真不是时候。:(

明天开始拍厂景，将会是劳碌的三个星期，因为厂是我家，而我在家的戏也很多，所以就会是十二个小时不停的拍摄。真的是辛苦大家。我病了对进度没有帮助,是有点担心。现在只能多多喝水，凉茶，休息，希望不会拖累制作组。

还是早点休息了，我虽然没上网，但心里还是有你们。
谢谢你们鼓励的话，等我拍完戏之后，希望有更多时间在这里和大家分享我的内心世界。

晚安咯！！

＊sleep tight everyone＊

fans 的不过聚会

2007-06-11T22:23:00.000+08:00

亲爱的fans, 谢谢你们昨晚和我一起胡闹。：）真的很珍惜那短短的时间，也很开心能和你们一起吃，喝，玩，乐！
＊flying hug＊
不好意思不能呆太久因为有事在身，希望你们还是玩的很开心！

说真的，我真的很幸福，也很幸运。陪着我一起成长的fans,(你们是谁，自己心知肚明啦！)让我心里暖暖的，而新脸孔也让我觉得很欣慰。很开心有你们的加入。因为有你们的支持和爱戴，所以我才会在这里，继续为你们表演。
＊LOTSA LOVE*

还有我想说的是，最近有些fans跟我提到关于tagboard的事，我真的也无能为力。我想想后，决定还是以blogging为主。并不是不想参与你们的讨论，或看看你们的blogs, 只是网络上的言论真的无法控制，冒充者也可以无须对自己所说的话承担任何责任。这样也就很容易造成不必要的误会，所以在这里，希望能得到大家的谅解。不过我还是会看你们讨论的话题哦！

我接下来就要开始拍厂景了，真的会没有白天没有黑夜地工作。上网的时间更少，因为平均一天将有可能从早上七点拍到凌晨，在接早班出外景。会很累，不过都是为了能完成这部戏，所以还是会努力的！因为热爱工作，所以不会埋怨辛苦！

好啦，明天我早上六点就要到公司了，所以还是早点修休息，把戏演好！

P.S. Joelle, 我非常认同你的看法。曾经有监制也跟我说同样的话，只不过自己功力不够，没有办法做到。我会继续磨，希望能磨出更好的成绩。最近看了看自己的戏，明白你的意思了，接下来在拍的时候会比较注意！谢谢你的意见，你如果还观察到什么，一定要与我分享，让我从中学习. Thank you. :)

FAN CLUB

2007-06-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

Kudos to Meiling, the Chairman of Jollity Fan Club!
For those who would like to be in the loop of events, updates and gatherings, please email Meiling: mei_ling_81@hotmail.com

To all Jolliteers out there: Thanks for being so supportive all these while! *flying hug to all*
Can't wait to see you all soon. :)

自然地演

2007-06-07T22:26:00.000+08:00

对不起各位，好久没有上网。
最近不止在忙着拍戏，还有一些棘手的私人问题得解决，所以有好几个会议要开。
真的有点累，所以今天的会就改去下个星期。

看到了tag board 上有好多新的意见，真的很欣慰。今天正好和一个经验丰富的上司谈到自己的演出，她说很多人对我的要求很高，一直希望我能在演戏方面有所突破，可是他们也知道我有时间的局限。（有个导演跟我说她常会忘了我只有二十四岁）很多经验是买不到，也挖不出的，只有时间才能让我有所体验而从中领悟。她也说了，我们这一代的演员吃亏在没有经过前辈们的“演员训练班”；我们很多都是读完书就进来演戏。也没有什么特别的训练，个个对演戏一窍不通，就混在群中摸索。我想可能就是这样吧，所以与前辈相比之下，欠佳的表演就更明显了。

我也很想如曾慧芬一样，能够很自然地演，毫无痕迹地说服观众，只是目前还在捉摸。不过我知道时间宝贵！　毕竟，现在的观众选择太多，那既然电视已经不是唯一的消遣，观众也无须包容不好的演出。所以如果不想被淘汰，就要加油了！
说真的，我没有一个战略，只能激发自己继续多看，多听，多问。
其他的，就顺其自然，要不然太刻意也会弄巧反拙。

:) 为我打气哦！

To Smoke Or Not To Smoke

2007-06-07T22:13:00.000+08:00

I was filming at this hawker centre the other day, and I noticed that alternate tables had this yellow box drawn around it which marked them out as smoking tables. Since I don't smoke, it doesn't really affect me, but because I am on the receiving end, I am actually very for the "NO SMOKING IN PUBLIC AREAS policy. Unfortunately, smoke is non-territorial, so just because I'm sitting outside the box doesn't mean I won't be affected.

Maybe hawker centres should have gazebos located away from the eating area that are meant for smokers.

Ouch

2007-06-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

The day I was defeated by a bunch of young punks...

2007-06-04T00:45:00.000+08:00

哈咯！～

首先我想跟我所有的fans说：好爱你们哦！＊kiss*

偶尔会听到一些难听的话，不过我不会太在意啦！毕竟，身为一名艺人，摆出去任人批评，赞美和讨论是个不可避免的过程。我也慢慢学会应付了。你们也不用为我担心ok?　其实我觉得很幸运了，因为要有人愿意把注意和观察力放在我身上，才能够给我他们的评语。虽然有时候不好听，但是这一切是个学习过程。有批评才会有进步吗！至少有人在看我的戏啊！

真的谢谢你们给我的鼓励，和意见。因为你们心里有我，所以我都很认真的对待你们的看法，也希望带给你们同样的真诚。不过没有人是完美的，会有人认同我，也会有人抗拒我，这一切我愿意接受，有必要也会做些调整。‘做调整是希望能够让自己有改善的空间而不要太安于现状，把一切当成理所当然。

你们也一样哦！如果在学校，或工作环境遇到不愉快的事，一定要记得永远都会有人爱你，庆幸你的存在。

一起往前看！

Ice Cream!

2007-06-03T00:44:00.000+08:00

I love ice cream!!!! *yummy* Vanilla flavour!! My favourite!!
The best time to eat ice-cream is during winter, when it's all chilly.
Try it when you get the chance!

At least I got to finish one ice-cream cone before I had to use it to smear Chengxi's face. He only used it as "shaving cream", didn't get to eat. Poor boy!

ME!

2007-06-03T00:02:00.001+08:00

有些记者曾经在报章上说过我的表情很一致，其实我想他们应该是在说我的演绎方式没有层次。

喜，怒，哀，乐，都挂在脸上。

Hmm...那要怎么演，才会有层次呢？

记得曾经和谢韶光上过一堂课，当时他与我分享他的经验，可是我当时还是有些不明白。毕竟他有多年经验的累积，而我却是个对演戏一窍不通的新人。思想上真的是有点距离。

这几年，说演的戏多不算多，少不算少，自己到现在还在学习当中，一直在寻找答案。老实说，听到人家说自己没有进步，真的是有点惭愧。所以最近一直积极的学习，希望能有改进，好给大家呈现一个不一样的我。

说到来，最基本的还是演戏。演戏就要有层次，要有说服力。
在现实生活中，我们都会表现出不同层次的快乐，悲哀，怨恨和喜悦。就如照片里所看到的，我内心感受的，很多时候都会很明显的表露在脸上。
这或许就是所谓的层次吧！任何情感都有不同，快乐不一定要笑，悲伤不一定要哭。最真的情感，往往都会呈现在现实生活中，而自己却没有办法把它完整地搬上银幕。

这就是演技还不成熟的症状吧！不过我会继续努力，向周围的前辈们学习，聆听身边的人所给予的批评和看法。也希望大家会继续给我意见，让我能往更好的方向前进。

谢谢大家的鼓励和支持。我一定会全力以赴！

Fun and Laughter

2007-06-02T22:48:00.000+08:00

We were filming the scene of 金姐's birthday. It was so fun!! Actually I was very sleepy, cos' it was early in the morning, but somehow when the camera rolled, I became high and started to jump around like it was really someone's birthday!

Although the few of us don't spend a lot of time together, but I felt the chemistry was great. Everyone was just fooling around! 金姐 was so sweet...she fried keropok and made 茶叶蛋 for us! It was like superbly delicious..YUMMY YUMMY!! It's really world-class!

I wanna learn cooking from her~!~!

金姐

2007-06-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

I think 金姐 is sooooo cute! It's been a lot of fun working with her because she's got so many stories to share and she cooks very well! Love her so much...

Running Fast Slowly

2007-05-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

The cameraman is doing a close-up of me running, but I can't run too fast because he can't catch up with all the wires in the way. So I have to look like I'm running very fast without really running very fast. It's quite funny when I watch it and I'm sure all of you will have a good laugh.
Go ahead, laugh at me!

I call this video "Running Fast Slowly"

Waltz

2007-05-29T23:38:00.000+08:00

We had to come up with this short choreography on the spot. The only time I danced waltz intensively was during 《奇迹》, which was already quite some time ago. Chengxi said he doesn't know anything but I think he picked up very quickly. Nonetheless, we still managed to fool our way through. *heehee* It will probably look better when you watch us on TV because the effects and editing will make up for our lack of skill. Enjoy and laugh 吧!

Early in the Morning

2007-05-29T00:15:00.001+08:00

Early in the morning, at Pasir Ris when the sun was blazing into my eyes...

The princess awaits the prince...

They meet and they dance...

He took her on a bicycle ride...

And realise she is not who he thinks she is...*ARGH* (the AP and I fooling around)

At the Giraffe Cafe

Karate Chop.
*ouch*

We were filming at this restaurant at night. The food's really really good. You can't see in this picture, but Chengxi and I were helping ourselves to the fish on the table. It was so fresh you can feel the juice when you chew the meat. Yummy...

GANG FIGHT

2007-05-27T22:22:00.001+08:00

Finally, I've managed to catch up on my entries. Sorry for the sudden bombardment of entries but I realise I'm so many days behind, with so many un-uploaded photos. I've been having very very tight schedules, so it's been quite hectic. What is worse is I came down with gastric and migraine yesterday. :( Sob sob, my body is breaking down....

I'm supposed to lead a gang fight today, but looks like the cat is stealing the show.
She's eating the grass in case you can't quite see.

Kitty Cat

2007-05-27T22:18:00.000+08:00

I love animals!!

Took a series of 10 pictures of this kitten which I might post up at a later date. She is just so adorable although her mood swings are really bad. She can snuff you one minute then come and curl up against you the next. She was loitering at a park where we were filming today and I couldn't help but play with her. :) Luv it!!

2007-05-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

This scene is a dream sequence.
If I were a princess and my prince falls in love with another princess, this is what I would do...

Haha, quite psychotic huh?
Disclaimer: Pictures taken while filming

The Day I Fell Sick

2007-05-27T21:52:00.001+08:00

The day I filmed this, I fell sick the following day...:( Currently recovering from gastric and headache.

金箍棒 (Jin Gu Bang) of Sun Wu Kong.
Haha, no la, it's actually a toothpick for me to scratch my head under the wig. Sounds gross, but it's really very itchy. So no choice, need to use something pointy.

Oops, caught taking an MMS of myself.

Peeping at my co-stars

We're doing one of those romantic scenes but as you can see from the behind the scenes that it's not THAT romantic la...

Fall down also must look pretty...
Actually it's cos' the wig is looking weird on screen

*gasps*

Sungei Road flea market

2007-05-27T21:35:00.001+08:00

It's sooo hot these days. The other day we were filming at Sungei Road flea market, and I was so amazed at how the old vendors can bear with the heat and glare from the sun, setting up small little stalls to sell second-hand items. I didn't see anything I like, more because it was too hot to shop, and it got a bit crowded towards the evening. I remembered my classmate in Uni once did a photo-story here, and she was very "lucky" because the day she came, there was a raid, so she managed to get some very interesting interviews from the vendors and exciting pictures. Since then, I told myself I must come and take a look, but never did.

Haha, now my wish came true. Well, I suppose for that day, the only interesting thing that happened was probably me running after my daddy, weaving in between the stalls, while the camera stayed hidden somewhere so the people walking around will react naturally to us pushing past them. Heehee...

Meeting Daddy

2007-05-27T21:09:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered what's it like to miss someone so dear for over a decade?

That strange feeling
Of familarity mixed with uncertainty
Love mixed with hatred?

It's almost like all these years, you want to see him, but don't want to see him.

Because you're afraid.
Because I'm afraid.

I don't know what to say when I meet him.
I don't know what he will say when he meets me.

He left me, and I hated him.
Yet I love him for being the only man in my life.

I say I don't want to see him.
Yet tears well up whenever I think of him.

Now that we've met.
Can I still call him
My father?

Haw Par Villa

2007-05-26T22:27:00.000+08:00

好久没有到虎豹别墅了！

那天去了那里的一间餐厅拍戏，就顺便走走，勾起了好多小时候的回忆。

我还不知道原来这个地方曾经是胡家的私人别墅。

胡文虎和胡文豹是两兄弟，而且我们很熟悉的虎标万金油 (Tiger Balm)

就是由他们创下的公司生产的!

Bonia Launch

2007-05-23T20:31:00.001+08:00

Hellooo all...
I know a lot of you couldn't come to the event cos' it was too last minute, but it's okay. I'm happy to know you were all rooting for me in your heart! *big hug* Thank you thank you!!! *cheers*

Today was the launch of the new Bonia outlet at OG Orchard Point. Michelle and I were given the opportunity to design the kind of bags we would like and today's event also saw us unveiling the 4 designs we came up with.

Designing was very fun and exciting for me because I never thought I would ever get the chance to do that. What's more, it's my first time, and I'm not a very arty-farty person, so it was a bit challenging. But the designer at Bonia was very helpful and supportive, so I just don't think too much la! I ended up keeping my designs simple and classic. I really hope they will sell very well so Bonia will get us to design again for the next season or something!!

Mich and I with our designs

During the interview

After programme briefing

East Coast filming

2007-05-23T20:11:00.002+08:00

We were filming at Waraku, a Japanese restaurant at East Coast. The sushi you see is good to look at, but are actually props bought the night before, from the supermarket. All the rice become hard and frozen and I didn't dare to eat. *oops*

It was very early in the morning, I think everyone one was quite sleepy, except for the very pregnant Jaq. *Haha* I only had an hour sleep the night before, but because I had my favourite teh-si in the morning, so I was quite hyper too. Yes, give me good teh-si and I will be a very happy person!

That jump-for-joy picture of me you see was done in the afternoon so by then, I had already had a good nap (because it was raining and we had a nice lunch and then nap on the bus after that).

A Life Of Hope

2007-05-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

I was sorting out my folders and found this old picture, taken maybe about 2 or 3 years ago I can't remember. This is the cast of 《活下去》and we were gathered to take a poster picture for the drama.

I remembered when I was doing this drama, I almost never ever meet Hanwei and Ping Hui because their storyline was completely different from Elvin and mine. So it's strange that even though we're on the same drama, we don't ever meet on set, and the only time we do meet is when we come together to do a poster picture. *haha*

That's the way drama is sometimes.
Those were the days...

Biker Chick

2007-05-21T22:14:00.000+08:00

I've always wanted to take a motorbike license. Start with a Class 2B and eventually move up to Class 2. Cos' I remembered seeing a girlfriend looking so "handsome" riding her Fireblade. But of course, ask any parent and they will say "NO!", so that's why till now, I can only straddle the bike, but not learn to ride.

I'm a Biker Chick!!

Greatest Love Press Conference

2007-05-21T21:25:00.001+08:00

哈咯各位！

《爱。特别的你》要“上影”了！29 May, 9 pm, Channel 8.

记得收看哦！

哈哈！好像在卖广告一样。

那天在 Amara Hotel 举办了《爱。特别的你》的记者招待会。

和戏里的大朋友和小朋友见面，恍如隔世。

当时在拍摄的时候，感觉好漫长。怎么好象天天都拍不完。

可能是在场的压力，让我们大家都没有好好地和彼此沟通，玩闹。

所以我们收工之后见到彼此，反而更有火花！

我这次从导演们身上真的获益不浅。从来没有人这样为我点迷经，让我了解到应该怎么演和想。

当然被骂的机率也比较多，但是都是为我好，所以我也没有怨言。反而希望能有更多这样的机会

学习。我发现如果我们被骂的时候，可以放开心中的委屈，就会看到对方的出发点，自己心里也

就不会那么不好受了！

这部戏蛮难演，因为内心戏很多。人物的情绪篇幅蛮广，所以真的靠导演们细心的雕戏，让我了

解应该怎么演。话说回来，我真的很开心完成了一部电视剧。

希望接下来有更多作品让大家期待！

我会加油的！

为我打气哦！！

*love.kiss*

三位助导之一

有个摄影师要我摆pose。
我的助理乘机拍照。对不起，影像不是很好。

戏里的四位小主角。
有人说这张像是我理想中的家庭－－拥有四个孩子。

我漂亮的“妹妹”

INJURED

2007-05-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

I was injured yesterday while filming. I had to kick the suitcase Nelson was on, and then sort of circled my legs in midair before jumping up. The concept is very stylo-mylo, but I pulled a muscle in the inner thigh, so now I'm walking with a limp. It was so painful!!! The stuntman ended up being my body double. He made it look so easy and impressive.

Do we look like sisters or what? *haha*

拆下假发我们就像是情侣装了！

Wired Barbie

2007-05-19T22:59:00.000+08:00

Don't you think she looks quite good even though it's only wires?
Sometimes, the most basic uncomplicated things is good enough.

Vagary Ad

2007-05-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

Heehee, the watch ad is out on Saturday's TODAY! :)

GER-GER

2007-05-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

Me having breakfast at Ghim Moh Market. 豆浆油条!! We film a lot at this hawker centre and I'm always very happy whenever we go there, cos' there is plenty of food and shops around. Food makes me happy and I can have different breakfast every morning. Yummy!!

I couldn't stand wearing the wig cos' it made my head so itchy!! Had to take it off and let the Kate comb it through for me again. We look beautiful because of them every morning okay!

There was rain and we had to wait. Notice the curls in my hair have all gone straight. I kinda like it like that. Messy messy...haha...I'm messy la!

FIGHT!!!

2007-05-18T23:56:00.001+08:00

I find this picture very funny. It's like I kenna whack by so many guys and you see one man at the bottom right hand corner, obviously not helping. *haha* He is actually the martial arts choreographer. What he does is he will teach us how to fight, where to punch/kick, how to punch/kick and if there's anything that requires falling from a height, or a stunt that is potentially dangerous, he will replace the actor.

Kenna kick in the backside by Vincent. He is the small leader of this gang who actually belongs to another bigger gang that has a sub-head, that has a bigger head, who has deep conflict with my "po po" and daddy. Complicated secret society stuff but the point is, everytime we see each other, sure fight.*abish*

Me trying to do a Uma Thurman in Kill Bill impersonation. *heehee*

Daddy and I...:)

Hiding

2007-05-18T23:49:00.001+08:00

I'm actually very happy to be doing this show, cos' get to meet a lot of new friends! Jin-jie is my "po po" and she's very powerful in martial arts; Jaqueline is my best friend in the show and she's very pretty and cute as a ditzy Ah Lian. The show is quite light-hearted, and I hope many people will like it. Not sure when it will be airing or what time yet, cos' we only started filming 2 weeks ago, so it's gonna be another 2 months more for me before it wraps. Which means I can only wait till July for my next holiday. Wish me luck! *crosses my fingers*

Chun Chun

2007-05-17T11:32:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!! Finally my blogspot is error free! Can start to post pictures online...I'm doing this just before I head out to work. Today's gonna be a long day cos' we're gonna end late and I have to fight (again). I'm fighting a lot for this show, so I'm always very tired by the time I come home. Sorry to keep everyone waiting and I'll try to post up more stuff soon!! :)

2007-05-14T19:31:00.000+08:00

Hello...I don't know what's wrong with the server at blogger, do u guys have the same problem? Everything seems a little messed up. Sigh...can't upload pictures, so I can't show you my new look for now. I hope the problem clears up soon. *keeps fingers crossed*

2007-05-13T01:39:00.000+08:00

Sorry people, something wrong with my blogger account. Haven't been able to upload any pictures due to some error. I hope it'd be rectified soon. Meantime...keep checking back. :(

Girlish Charm

2007-04-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

When I was a little girl, I always had my hair cut really short like a boy. My father would sit me outside the flat, put my head through a newspaper and snip away my messy hair. I never got a chance to keep really long hair.

This is a dream come true...

During imaging at MediaCorp's make-up unit 2 days ago.

All Things Pink

2007-04-28T22:11:00.000+08:00

The song is finally up! I'm totally addicted to this song. Love it to pieces!

If you ask me what's my favourite colour, I wouldn't think pink really, but it's really a coincidence that this doll is pink, my phone is pink, my handphone pouch is pink, the blog template is pink blah blah blah...

To me pink represents love, so you can say I'm immersed in love because I've got too many pink things around.

Isn't she pretty?

Birthday Presents!

2007-04-28T21:54:00.000+08:00

I am so happy!!

On top of the many birthday smses and handful of calls I got from friends wishing me, here is what I got:

My first stash of presents...I love them all!! Thanks to everyone! :)
I also received 2 books and a beautiful collector's Mont Blanc pen not pictured.
I feel so loved!!

A big beautiful bouquet of white daisies from a good friend.
(2 days already and it's still sitting healthily in a glass vase)

Blessed Birthday

2007-04-26T01:34:00.000+08:00

Thanks to everyone who sent me sweet birthday wishes on the tagboard! I am truly blessed to have many good friends, colleagues and fans who remembered my birthday and made it special with their thoughtfulness.

I had a busy (but fun!) week, filled with celebrations with different groups of people, including the wrap party for the drama that I just finished filming (爱。特别的你）. It's the first time I'm having such a major birthday celebration. Last year, I spent my birthday alone, stranded in Cape Town because I missed my flight home on the 24th. I remembered I took a bus to the beach, bought some Nandos chicken and had a picnic cum tanning session. I'm so glad this year, I'm home, spending my days in the company of people I love.

Haha! Of course got lotsa pressies!! I love them all!!! I will post pictures of my stash soon, as soon as I get my room sorted out from the wrapping paper, ribbons, boxes and cards.

Tomorrow is imaging day for my new drama role, so I better go sleep soon.
More pictures will come. :)